POEM: Rare Prayer

I found myself
In rare
A genus reserved for
Mother’s ilk
Only doing what
Kin be done
In udder neglect
Of that long a go
Cached in
Fore more sensible weighs
Now wholly saved
For foxholes
The mass
Of desperate men
And occasional
Re-sorting
In rare
As raw flesh exposed
With feudal armor flailing miserably
In stoic winsome
’s dawns
As initiate
Such supplication
With a hesitant plea
Claiming how sow little requested
And sow far between
Only mildly disappointed with the crop received
In won’s
With such scanty solicitations
The ground of my being
Like an ungraceful sludge hammer cleaving diamonds
Seaming as a sedimental at best
A grime scene at worst
A cut to ribbons
Stairing into a box
Bound for eternity
And still
As I here, a response
An uncommon sense
A peel for more
In treat
Even the one
Who reveres coarse
And bars none
The less
The great
I am
Fooly in chanted
Soully to that call
Which cannot be herd
Accept bye
One’s self

This poem was inspired by a prayerful moment at a protest to stop the BP refinery in Oregon, Ohio, from investing 2.5 billion dollars to retool to process , the dirtiest source of petroleum yet sought after by oily men. Toward the end of the demonstration, I found myself at the fence reflecting on the unlikelihood that we would be able to stop this fuelish investment in an environmentally destructive infrastructure, a generations-long commitment of resources to a dirty energy , an asphalt super-highway to perdition.

The “rare” in this poem, not surprisingly has several meanings. While I quite easily, with great frequency, say a of thanks, I rarely ask for anything very specific.  I can’t help but a feeling of in the notion that is waiting to align the universe according to my requests.  Also, this is a personal practice and practical way for me to decouple from the many manipulative aspects of , as if God exists to serve my will.  I am quite thrilled with God’s and how magnificently convenient it serves my will and purposes.  In this sea of , any desire to bend the world to my will seems like disgruntlement.   Most any traditional prayer has been leveled by my integration into my of the Meister Eckhart quote, “If there were but one prayer, ‘Thanks,’ would suffice.”  However, there are the occasional moments when I feel particularly vulnerable or mournful.  This is where the “rare” is “As raw flesh exposed.”  The world is definitely a mournful place.  Discord and are everyday experiences.  -seekers must confront ignorance, , and outright intransigence.

In the face of the at BP, I can fantasize about God sending down a pillar of fire to destroy such intransigent offenders.  Unfortunately, this perverse desire is in much too scary alignment with the very BP offenders I wish to see punished or expunged from our shared we call earth.  Such greedy and spiritually offenders wish nothing more than to secure their own little world from its many vulnerabilities and impinging .  Well, my God is not a mighty fortress!  My God is the giver of , unmerited as we turn out to be at times.  My God mourns with me as discord and destruction rains.  My God is in “it all,” yearning and wooing us to live fully, not settling for lesser , half-truths, and lives broken into pieces.  I got the answer to my prayer before I even finished it.  As I was engaging God with talk of how I ask for stuff so infrequently, and how I don’t ask for much, I was gently but firmly and unmistakenly reminded that God does not want me to make merely occasional, hesitant or apologetic pleas for incrementally better lives.  God’s will for our is for whole lives, lived boldly, even in the face of seeming intractable brokenness.  God incessantly invites us to be people of hope, a living hope which becomes incarnate in the world by boldly living in consonance with that hope.  In case this bold sentiment might be doubted, my quick prayer and swift response was punctuated with the crowd of witnesses that day boldly singing about how we will not , neither our hopes nor our demands for a world full of .  God works in strange in mysterious ways.  Sometimes not so mysterious — though perhaps somewhat strange to some.

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